im tired. | ieatorange's Blog
overall, i don't like how anything is going.
i don't like how i am right now
i don't like the people around me
i miss the people i actually enjoyed being with
and i feel i wasn't really good at the things i thought i was
which leaves me pretty much nothing.
i know there's people willing to help others look up, but i'm afraid to ask for help
i even paid a therapist by myself, all she did was avoid certain topics and then send me to one of the pills kind
psychiatrist is it?
i don't like the pills ones, but i already paid so i guess i'll go with it
i went to the place and 40 minutes after my hour, he let the patient before me in.
the reason why it's important to note i paid myself is because i feel whoever pays is the good guy. i believe that since the custody fight.
now i don't only see them as sold, they are completely useless, i went in sad and came out sad AND angry
if you read this, i have a question. what powers you through life?
a common answer is, you just go with it. but why?
you fight with today so you can fight with tomorrow?
i don't feel like it.
i miss my friends, i don't know if i ever commented this, but they are really special to me.
i strongly believe the first time i felt truly happy, was with them.
now, by society's master plan, we don't see each other very much
they were pretty much everything that made me enjoy my time
i also liked thinking i was good with numbers, to top it all i failed every single test in the last two months.
i lost the track of what i was ranting about so, good night.
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